These are the two things I want the most, and the things that I’m lacking.
My health has been on a decline for the last couple of years, I’m currently going through the lengthy process of numerous doctors appointments and tests and waiting to see if one of them will shine some light on what is going on in my body.
In the meantime I struggle to cope each day, and slip further back with my panic attacks. I’ve suffered since I was 13 and had fought so hard to overcome them but now I’ve slipped back into them and I’m kicking myself so much. Everyday I can feel the anxiety just waiting inside to burst out.
All of this leads to depression and general unhappiness, I just hope that one day soon I will find out what’s wrong and find a way to improve my health, get a hold of my panic attacks and find happiness again.